Around November of 2024 I was attending trade school for HVAC . During this time I was getting close to the guys who where all slightly older and were into
Gambling (for information we were all over the age of 18) and while I was talking to group I got curious and decided to join in .at first I wasn’t a huge issue since I was being cautious with how much I wa playing around $60-300 (yes I’m america) and something I will made profit other times I would just lose.
However over time I got consumed by my own greasy and played higher which at some time did pay out other time I just lost faster
It wasn’t a problem untill around March of 2025 where my fuck up start to snowball and continues
During this time I had just received my tax return of $2000 .as you could probably guess rather then paying bills or saving I gambling it without ba second thought.After coming to the realization of I was thinking what to do and my dumbass thought gambling is great idea. Sow what did I do
(I decided to use my 401) For clarity for the since around 2019 I was using Robinhood to invest and as well as create a 401 in that account I had close to $2000 combine since I had investments like around 800 and my 401 account I have over 900
This of course end me losing it all again .
A few days later I was looking at my options and then to make it worse what did I do I took out loans
Not 1or 2 but 3 fuckin loans thinking that when I win I could easily just pay it back spoiler it didn’t happen
Because of all this I didn’t have any money I have been paying my bills properly and to make it worse my income got reduced after all this it got worse since I haven’t told anyone it affects my relationship with my mom because she would ask me if I can leand her for the grocerys or for other things her and there which I didn’t .
After some time she would have intervention with explain how much of a dumbass I am because I didn’t have an money saved for emergency Im struggling with bill and how she doesn’t have money due to not havea solid work schedule.
To make it worse she also said that she doesn’t trust me anymore because I failed to make one of her card payments for the month on May (for more information I usually in charge of schedule her bank credit card payments)
And to make it worse just before posting she sat me down again because I didn’t inform her about a the rent payment ( which I’m at fault since I didn’t inform her about it)
Now Im.in debt struggling to make a solid income,a broken relationship with my own mom all because of my gambling addiction
TL/DR I gambling away over $6,000 and lost put myself in debt and now I destroyed my relationship with my mom because I wasn’t be honest and open with her (don’t make the same mistake I did and try to cherish your family since clearly I didn’t appreciate my own).
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The last thing you lose to gambling addiction is your mind – start by coming clean to everyone, remove your avenues to gamble, and try to remedy your rent so you don’t have to move or potentially wind up on the streets. It doesn’t matter how far down the wrong road you go my friend, you can always turn around 🤙
You have to be 21 in America to gamble??
Make peace with your mom, get therapy from professionals, and start paying off your debts step by step.
A friend of mine was in a very similar situation — he also thought he could win it all back, but sadly, it ended much worse for him.
Get it together while you still can. You can get out of this, but you won’t do it alone ask for help now, before it’s too late.
All of the advice posted before this comment is solid. First off, you have admitted to yourself that you have an issue. Secondly, tell those around you, starting with those that you have hurt. These are your first steps to peace. Also, the people that love you should support you.
Think of it this way. If one of your boys had an issue with drinking and asked you not to do so around him, you probably would not. Others will do the same for you
If you can seek therapy go for it. If you want to go a cheaper more wide spread route, go to AA or any free group meeting such as those. Addiction comes in many many forms. It’s best to get help while you are young.
it’s never too late to take control of your life and try to make amends. gambler’s anonymous can help you with that.