TIL why I struggle to say no

I was just told to go fuck myself because I still said no after she tried to sweet-talk me and “reason” with me.

This is why I struggle so much with saying no and sticking to my own boundaries.

No makes people angry. No gets me verbally abused and used to get me physically abused.

Some people think it’s easy to just say no and be done with it, but I already know the narrative is going to get twisted and I’ll end up being the one in the wrong in everyone’s eyes.

So it’s either be angry at myself for saying yes or have everyone around me angry at me for saying no.

I just can’t win.