Honestly it took me a long time to even understand that what happened to me constituted sexual assault.
The first was just some pervy guy who tried to go up my shorts at the public library. I was 14. I was bigger than him and he was old. I swung on him and he ran. I just wrote it off as an old perv.
The other two time were older women. Friends of the family. Both times they got too drunk at a BBQ/party and decided to grab my and force their hands down my pants. I guess thankfully I’m not super well endowed so they just sorta lost interest. But it took me a long time to understand that was sexual assault because like…you’re a teenage boy right? You’re supposed to want women to touch it. You’d be a fag if you don’t want a woman to touch you that way right? …so I must’ve wanted it right?
Took me a long time to come to terms with what hOoened and by the time I did I was old enough I guess the sting had worn off. Can’t say I’m not bitter about what they did looking back. But ones dead and the others on her second round of chemo for breast cancer so hating them does no good.
Just move forward with my life. Try to help other men understand you don’t have to be a victim to have been the victim of assault. It’s a thing that’s done to you, but it doesn’t change who or what you are. And not wanting it doesn’t make you any less of a man. Men are allowed to consent or not.
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Honestly it took me a long time to even understand that what happened to me constituted sexual assault.
The first was just some pervy guy who tried to go up my shorts at the public library. I was 14. I was bigger than him and he was old. I swung on him and he ran. I just wrote it off as an old perv.
The other two time were older women. Friends of the family. Both times they got too drunk at a BBQ/party and decided to grab my and force their hands down my pants. I guess thankfully I’m not super well endowed so they just sorta lost interest. But it took me a long time to understand that was sexual assault because like…you’re a teenage boy right? You’re supposed to want women to touch it. You’d be a fag if you don’t want a woman to touch you that way right? …so I must’ve wanted it right?
Took me a long time to come to terms with what hOoened and by the time I did I was old enough I guess the sting had worn off. Can’t say I’m not bitter about what they did looking back. But ones dead and the others on her second round of chemo for breast cancer so hating them does no good.
Just move forward with my life. Try to help other men understand you don’t have to be a victim to have been the victim of assault. It’s a thing that’s done to you, but it doesn’t change who or what you are. And not wanting it doesn’t make you any less of a man. Men are allowed to consent or not.