I dont know what to write, but I’m writing in hopes to see who might relate to this.
My(29m) sister(36f) was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer today. We found out about the tumor last month. Im just in shock. I have 2 jobs, full time school, and paycheck to paycheck in one of the most expensive cities in the US. My sister is halfway across the country. She was suffering seizures which left her without a job and she relies on VA healthcare. She has a preteen daughter with special needs. My mother has moved in with me because costs are so expensive here and now she too is grieving the eventual loss of her daughter. I worry so much about the effect it has on her health.
I just don’t know what to do. I myself am a vet but i cant even see a therapist because the appointments are a month wait here at a minimum. I just cant wrap my head around how i am going to raise my niece. I dont know how to grieve for my sister. I dont know what words to say. I dont know how to still go to work the next day. I dont have time for a social life, im falling behind in school but i cant stop or take a leave of absence because i also rely on the GI bill for housing allowance and it requires 100% attendance.
I wish i could just drop everything for her and be that supportive rock she needs me to be. But if i do, everything will fall apart. Im so lost. Im remaining strong for my mother and for my niece. But i cant even look my sister in the eyes knowing the inevitable.