TW: Abuse, SA – My Brother Molested Me as A Child While He Was a Teenager

When I was younger, I wanna say around 7 or 8, my brother was 14-15. During this time he was going through some severe trauma with stuff in his life and he took out a lot of his anger he would have pent up with my dad on me. Whether it would be physically, verbally, or in one case, worse. I got pretty yelled at from both my dad and my brother, my brother would just be more physical with me, most would just call it “brotherly love” when I would try to say what was going on. Or as most cases would play out, I would say what happened, my brother would say different, and no one would ever believe what I had to say. My dad would go on business trips a lot for his job and because my parents were split and my mom was neglectful, I was with my dad. It was at times like these where he was gone on a business trip that it began. it started with him introducing me to masturbation, he showed me what it was and said I couldn’t do it around anyone. After time passed I remember he brought me into the bathroom to make sure I had a bath, he joined me and played with me in the tub, turning on the shower head and calling it a rain forest, I didn’t think anything of it. After the bath he then brought me to his room after, where he then asked me to show him how i did everything, where it then changes targets from me to him where he then got me to perform various acts. It still haunts me and I haven’t been able to recover mentally