I’m 26 and a virgin. I was waiting and waiting for some girl to come along and steal my heart but it never happened. I’ve tried asking out a couple girls over the years who seemed like candidates, girls who I could fall in love and who might have good reasons to like me but these attempts went no where.
I am no ones first choice, the last time I even got a look or compliment that suggested I might be wanted I think I was about 18. I watched the girl I was in love with at 16 (we had dated for a few years) leave and and replace me quickly – after I thought we were bestfriends and madly inlove with each other. I have suffered so much and in these last 10 years I have had seldom a moment of tenderness or thoughtfulness from anyone.
Constantly treated like I don’t have feelings, that I don’t have a heart. All I wanted was true love and I’ve been forced to watch a world go by with so much love but none for me. I’m so tired of trying, of picking myself up and putting on a brave face.
I’ve been waiting for 10 years and I’m tired boss
I know most marriages fail these days and end in divorce (70% wife initiated), I know women pick for strength, money, power, status, I know that hypergamy is kind of real.
But I really thought if I was good, if I worked hard and had a true heart, if I’m strong and brave without being a bully, if I can be kind when others are not so kind to me, if I can resist sleazy dating apps and clubbing but be patient, if I can be well read but not forget how to socialise, then maybe a nice virtueous girl would see me and choose love.
But I’ve been alone 10 years without any real interest at all in all that time, the prime years of my youth. I don’t know why I am not sucidial, I do not know why I keep going to work. I do not know what it is I am waiting for
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I feel better already just writing that, no need to reply. I’m not looking for anything. Sometimes I just want to say something to someone
I know exactly where you’re coming from I’m in the same boat I’ll be turning (m29) in June Sometimes the best thing to do is to write out everything your feeling on a piece of paper and throw it out but since now we have technology you can post your thoughts on here and others can share their experiences and it helps you know you really ain’t alone in dealing with what your dealing with and I highly appreciate you sharing this post because I thought I might have been one of the few that was alone in this department and good to know I’m not