UPDATE :How do I waste money quickly?

Yesterday I made a post here about wanting to spend all my savings before my passing.

I want to thank you all kind strangers for the overwhelming support, I am really touched by all the kind words and encouragement I received, so many opened their homes to me and offered to take me around their cities /towns(if I happen to get better or have enough strength the coming months I’m definitely taking you up on your offers) , even had some people from my country reach out (a couple reached out and the wife had similar prognosis and she’s still fighting hard to keep going, they’ve invited me to have lunch with them at a restaurant of my choice and they’ll cover the cost ) and all the recommendations to get a second opinion, my dad had suggested this before but I was on the fence because I didn’t want to hear the same bad news, twice. I was ready to accept that I’ll be gone in a couple of months, but after spending time with my family today I saw how devastated they are about the new and I realised that I want to spend more time with them even if I only get a couple of months (hopefully more).

My parents advised me to not touch the money I’ve saved until after I’ve explored all options to get better, we have been in contact with a university hospital in another country and we are scheduled on Tuesday for an online evaluation before I travel there for further investigation. My dad has also contacted Mayo clinic (hopefully we get a response soon)

I was mistaken to think that enjoying life only consisted of taking drugs and drinking alcohol. I forgot that I had people around me who love and care for me, I forgot that I have had a chance to visit places around the world (even if it wasn’t my idea of fun then) and have unforgettable experiences. (I still want to have the psychedelic experience even though my parents are strongly against substance use,a friend of mine has promised that after I get a second opinion, no matter the outcome we’ll try some)

With all that’s happening to me, I ask everyone to please appreciate the good things that you have (even if they don’t feel that way right now) hug your loved ones, play with your pets, say no to things you don’t want, and go for the things you want. My biggest regret right now is not spending more time with my family and friends when I had all the strength to do things and go places , I regret resisting my mums hugs,I regret thinking my dad was annoying because he would call me everyday to check up on me,I wish I hadn’t kicked my younger siblings out of my room whenever they’d want to hang out with me. I regret moving out of the house because “I wanted privacy” (I’m moving my things back next week) ,I regret not taking a solo trip when I had the chance (kept telling myself that I’ll do it next year, now I’ll be lucky if I even make it till then) I regret cancelling every plan telling myself I was an introvert, now that I’m getting weaker I am not able to do much but I’ll try to be as close as possible with them.

I have no advice to give, I’m just a stupid new adult who was ungrateful and couldn’t see how fortunate I was (guess this is my punishment for being unappreciative)

Hug the people you love, tell them you love them, show appreciation for everything they do for you, no matter how small it seems. I used to joke that life is too long, but it doesn’t take much to shorten your life in a split second.

I’m sorry I couldn’t respond to all the messages, I received so many it’s been really difficult to keep up. I appreciate your prayers, well wishes, recommendations, thank you for making me want to live again.