Hi everyone, I would like to say thank you so much; I honestly appreciate it you guys are so sweet. I’m still sad because we were together for almost a year, but I do know that I deserve better. I have been disrespected by him a lot, but for now, I would like to heal. By the way I’m still on antidepressants. My psychiatrist wanted me to take a new one, which was Paxil. When I told my ex about it, I might lose interest in sex. I was hoping he would be okay as long as I love him and am able to give him attention, then that’s fine. Oh gosh, when he said we might as well break up because sex is important, I should’ve said, “Yeah, we should,” but gosh, I told him I wouldn’t take it, and he said good. During our relationship, I felt like I wasn’t doing enough because he always felt like dying, and I just felt I wasn’t the right person for him. When he doesn’t get what he wants, he goes on his phone and ignores me—no cuddling or anything, just ignores me. If I go on my phone, he just sends me home. Literally, he’s always on his phone, and I would tell him to put his phone away because I want to talk. As I said, if I go on my phone, it is a BIG PROBLEM for him. My heart hurts that he ended our relationship knowing in June it would’ve been our one-year anniversary. I love him a lot. I wish he could’ve changed. I really wish he could’ve become better for me. At the same time, I feel like I wasn’t the right person for him. I’m still sad. I do know he went to a show today and is definitely enjoying his day. While I’m home sad and lost. My heart hurt to the point I started to cry. I know I deserve better, but I wanted him to become better for me. I’m listening to sad music. I know I deserve better but I love him a lot but maybe when I move on I will realize there’s going to be a man who will care about me and my feelings. I will realize he never respects me or our relationship. I still feel like I wasn’t enough for him, or the right person for him. Why am I feeling like this? I feel like he’s right I wasn’t doing enough for him.
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I think this is for the best. I know you hurt now but trust me, you dodged a bullet and years of heartache.
You are so young. 98%+ of people have had a first proper relationship that ended bad, but a couple of years later they don’t even look back.
Your hurting because you loved him. It will take time to feel better, and I promise you better men exist. If you encounter men that treat you like that again, go the other direction. Be kind to yourself. Binge watch your fave show, hang out with friends, eat your fave snacks. Once we have broken up with someone it is important they do not become a marytr in your head. They treated you badly, so remember that. If you miss him remember the way he treated you.
Give yourself time as I said. It will get better day by day.
I’m really sorry you’re going through this. I can feel the pain in your words, and it’s heartbreaking to see you struggle with this. Breakups suck, especially when you’ve invested so much love and care into someone, and they don’t reciprocate in the same way.
I know it feels like you’re not enough right now — that maybe you didn’t do enough, or weren’t the right person for him — but that’s not true. You gave him a lot of love, and that’s something to be proud of, even if he couldn’t see it.
It’s okay to cry, to feel lost. It’s part of the process. But please remember: you deserve someone who sees you, who loves you the way you need to be loved. Maybe right now it hurts, but this is just a chapter. You’ve got so much life ahead of you, and the right person will come when it’s meant to be.
Take this time to focus on you — your healing, your passions, your growth. Don’t be afraid to lean on friends or family. You’ve got this. 💖
And when you’re ready, don’t hesitate to talk about it more — you’re not alone in this. ❤️