Hi everyone. Thank you for all the support and advice I got. So much stuff has happened in the 2 weeks since he first started molesting me to now. Well I didn’t report him till Wednesday so he was able to do the things he did on that Monday twice on Tuesday but I rushed out of the house Wednesday so nothing happened. I went with a friend and told a counselor. I have to admit it took her a long time to understand what I was saying cause I was crying so much. When she did get it out of me she immediately called the cops and cps. I was questioned all day and kept having to tell everything g that happened over and over again. I eventually had to do those phone calls where the police recorded it and he admitted to everything on the call. After that he came to my school as I wasn’t picking up my phone but he still had my location. He got arrested at my school and one of my friends got a video and pictures not knowing who he was xp. I was put into foster care and fortunately I was put into a foster home right away. I’m staying with a very nice lady who’s been fostering for years! My neighbors agreed to take care of my animals. My uncle, grandma, and grad father came down here because my dad attempted suicide while in jail,this heart stopped but they managed to bring him back. This was on Sunday the 21st. I’ve been going to school normally, getting picked up and dropped up by a company that does transportation for foster kids. Today I went back to my house to visit my uncle and that’s when he stopped the news. Even though the brought my dad back, his lungs and heart was very weak, perks of being a drug addict, alcoholic, and chain smoker for most of his life but due to that he passed away on Saturday. I’ve been crying so much that I can barely see and right now I just fell numb 15 days ago I was a perfectly normal kid, sure my dad was a bit weird and an asshole sometimes but my life was good. I still can’t wrap my head around this cause everything is happening so fast. All I want is to go back in time and maybe be stuck in a time loop so that I don’t have to be here. I’m sorry if it’s all jumbled up its late but I just wanted to get a bit out, I’ll answer any questions you guys have. Bye!
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First of all, I want to say I’m so sorry. For both what he’s done to you, but also now him being gone. That’s a lot for one to take on in less than 30 days. Regardless of what’s happened it’s still going to hurt. Im sure you’re going to feel guilt and that’s normal.
As for life being good for the most part, abuse / trauma doesn’t have to be the extreme extreme it can happen in such subtle ways you don’t even realize how “un normal” it is until you’re finally on the outside looking in.
A lot lies ahead but it seems like you have a good head on your shoulders. If you can, I would talk to your school and see if there’s any resources to get you into therapy / counseling. I’m sure you could find support groups in person or if you’re more comfortable – online. I assume since you have Reddit you have FB and should be relatively easy to find one there.
Will your family be eventually taking you to live with them? Or would someone come to where you are?
Please know this was not your fault. Your dad brought this about himself. He hurt you and as a result he hurt himself. I know it will take time for you to process everything, but know that the universe and God has your back. You are loved, wanted and protected. You are not alone. You are incredibly strong ❤️
I am so sorry
Again I’m sooo sad this happened too. It’s too much in such short time. As the poster above said please seek counselling through your school or outside if you can. Hopefully there is family who can support you through this traumatic time and the future. Sending strength your way.
I’m glad you’re ok! I’m so sorry for everything that’s happened, I suppose posting the story online may have felt initially like screaming into a dark, empty void, and just hoping someone would hear, but I’m sure glad you did. We can at least hear your horrid circumstances and talk you through it. You understandably feel horrible about what happened to your dad, and just as understandably, the majority of people will villianize him for the execrable things he has done to his daughter. I’m hoping that with time & support, you’ll find some measure of healing.
I’m very sorry for all you’ve been going through.
None of this is your fault. Any time you may start to blame yourself for anything, take a moment to reset and remind yourself of that.
I wish the best for you moving forward. You are dealing with so much awful-ness at such a young age. It’s good you have people around you who love you and that you can trust. Lean on them in times of need.
He attempted on his own life because ultimately he realised he did the worst thing a man can do. To SA your own daughter. It was the burden of his own actions that got to him and he did what he did. Don’t blame yourself for this. If it was a one time thing, I could still understand why you think about giving him another chance. But he again SAed you on the following day twice. So it was a conscious choice on his part and he regretted that after getting arrested. Don’t blame yourself and start rebuilding. It will be tough no doubt but you have to try to be tougher.
I hope you will be living with your mom soon. It’s not good to live with strangers while having such a horrible traumatic situation. You need therapy ASAP, ask about that in school or your relatives.
Please do not think it’s your fault. He was doing it a long time and planning to do more. He is the one to blame.
If you ever need to talk my inbox is open. I’ve been here. Things don’t seem okay right now but you will get through this. Your father did this to himself. Don’t blame yourself ever. Again my inbox is open and we can talk if you need to. I know it’s a lot sometimes.
I am so sorry this happened to you. Please know that you will be okay. Not today or tomorrow. But there will be beautiful days in your future filled with joy and laughter again. It’s important that you know that. Praying for you.
So sorry this happened to you. I’m proud of you for reporting it although I can’t imagine how hard that was especially with him passing afterwards. I hope you are able to have a really good life. None of this was your fault.