Hello Reddit, I wasn’t sure where to post this nor am I certain if this is the right subreddit for this but besides that:
Has anyone ever had the urge to ruin your entire life, like I mean the urge to cut all social contacts, do something illegal and destroy my entire reputation, fail school, get addicted to narcotics and or just straight up kill myself. I’ve occationally had these thoughts for some time now and I know they’re not good thoughts or normal. And I know that I most Likely won’t act out any of those thoughts but even if I know I would never go through with I still get incredible urges to just ruin my entire life beyond repair.
Sorry if its hard to understand english is not my first language and this is the first time I’ve tried to write my thoughts out like this. Obviously i haven’t actually told anyone about these thoughts as im scared people would take it wrong and see me in a negative light.
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Liberal government believers
I feel this way when I feel like I’m out of control, which is a lot of the time. The mind jumps to unhealthy and drastic ways to “prove” or regain control, especially when you are younger. As you get older and gain financial freedom you can calm those feelings by doing new and exciting things and realizing that you really can just do whatever you want or feel like in life. And when you start to get a grasp of what’s within your reach, those negative thoughts will turn into much more positive thoughts about things that you want to experience or do to make your life better.
It takes time, but it gets better. The thoughts are probably more normal than you think, especially for people with strict parents. Try new things on a small scale with what you have access to. You will feel weird but eventually better.