Used AI to undress someone and then requested other people to do the same

I have been addicted to porn for half my life. A couple years ago I noticed an ad for that on one of my forums. When you are addicted you eventually turn to more extreme forms to create more highs I guess? That’s how I interpreted it. I did it for someone I’ve always thought was really hot, but haven’t talked to in years. When I did it at first I thought it was hot and i had thoughts that I could do it for others. But shortly after that I felt really sick and grossed out. There are entire forums where people do this for people they know and are friends with even now it grosses me out. It makes me sick almost. Upon seeing this I immediately asked for the post to be deleted. I deleted my account on there and have never been back.

This person never saw this and no one else did either. I have talked about it in therapy and have felt resolved but every now and then I remember it and feel horrible. I deserve to feel horrible. What I did was disgusting and creepy. I feel like a disgusting person and I am one. I am a creep bc of that. I deserve to feel this way. I feel like I have ruined my life and myself bc of this. I feel like there’s no way I can be redeemed and I will always think back to this. I wish I put my phone down. I wish I didn’t do it. I’d do anything to go back and not do it. I’ve been heavily addicted to porn, and have been trying for months to stop. I’ve made small strides but still have relapsed. I still feel horrible as a person and I think I deserve to at this point. I hate that I did it. I hate it so much.