Visiting my mom for the last time

I’ve posted here about my family before. I just feel awful about this outcome. When I was 15 I was SA’d and because of it I moved in with my mom and step dad in another town. I was immediately isolated. I had no friends to tell what they did. They locked me away in the house. I wasn’t allowed to go anywhere or see anyone and they made me write false statements about my dad and step mom to help with win custody of my siblings. They won and I stayed in that house for 4 years, my siblings stayed for 5.

Over the years I took a lot of mental and physical abuse while shielding my siblings from it as much as I could. I had broken glass thrown at me, I’ve been chased with a knife by my own mother, hit, screamed at, and so much more. When I was 18 I left for college and my siblings started getting the worst of the abuse. I came home every other weekend to check on them and my step dad got more aggressive with me than he ever had.

Shortly after I started dating my now fiancé I discovered that when I was 15 my mom and step dad had worked together to hide a camera in my bedroom and a camera in the bathroom. My step dad, who isn’t good with technology, had saved videos and photos of my showering, undressing, using the restroom, and sleeping. Unfortunately for him, he also accidentally synced them to my Gmail account which he had hacked into a year prior thinking I wouldn’t notice. I found them in my google photos along with other photos I knew were specifically taken on his phone of him and my mom at the lake. Which is how I narrowed it down to him.

I immediately made plans to move back to my hometown, where I am now, and help my dad get the kids back. The police could never convict my step dad or my mom of anything with the cameras but they later admitted it to me knowing I could never prove it.

Last week, my dad won the custody battle of my 16 and 18 year old siblings. Although they have been living here just under a year now, we are glad to know they are here to stay. Now, this weekend we will be visiting my mom for the last time.

I don’t wish to see her. But I know the kids do so i will go. My older step sister will be there with her son, my nephew. He’s 5 now I think although I last saw him at 2 years old. I wanted to see him one more time. This will be the last time I see any of them. My mom, step dad, big brother and sister, my nephew.

I don’t wish to see my mother. But I can’t leave without seeing my nephew one more time. To make sure he’s ok. So, we’ll go for Easter. I bought my nephew everything a kid like him could want. A kite, chalk, water balloons, a ton of stuff. I hope he still likes playing outside. And I’ll walk in there and I’ll pretend everything is fine and I’ll help my nephew with water balloons and a kite and play with him like everything’s fine. And then my siblings will pack their bags and we’ll walk out. And when we say goodbye to everyone we won’t ever mention the fact that we’ll never see each other again.