Im just going to be completely honest im worried about the hiring process for any agency I apply to. I did not have a good home life at all growing up. Was abused pretty bad as a kid and saw some pretty rough stuff. I pretty much passed high school by the skin of my teeth. They’re going to ask me why I had a barely passing GPA I’m guessing. Though I was never charged with anything out of pure luck, I was basically a delinquent as a kid. Getting in fights, not showing up to school, partying, various other activities not characteristic of an upstanding citizen. After HS I dropped in and out of college and struggled to hold a job. Been fired, disciplined at work all that. I joined the military to straighten my life out. I was generally a good marine but had my issues. Some peoples opinions of me were low and others liked me. To the point of receiving a page 11 for poor leadership as an NCO while receiving a certificate of commendation for leadership and excelling at my job within the same month. I believe this was due to my attitude problem towards certain people in leadership position who I viewed as incompetent and others who I respected and treated as such. Generally unprofessional and obnoxious behavior on my part I see now. I work for the federal government and was questioned heavily about paperwork I received in the military. Some of it looks quite bad on me. But nonetheless the past few years have been stable and I’ve received multiple awards at work for performance, became the youngest supervisor ever at my department and a few other positive things.
My main concern is that I’m fully aware that if a background investigator or psychologist looked at me on paper I believe I would generally be seen as a shady character. It is pretty obvious that I struggled in life for a while to find a place and that i had some issues going on. But I don’t want to be defined by my past.