Hi. Me (24F) and my boyfriend (27M) had a fight 2 months ago and I can’t deal nor with what I did nor with his reaction. We went out and he was complaining about something all the time. I was pissed off and told him to stop complaining because it had no reason at all. I screamed at him in the middle of a store.
After that I told him I was sorry and he made fun of me trying to make ammends. I was pissed because I was genuinely trying.
When we came back to his house I told him I didn’t wanted to be close to him or see his face and avoided his company. He just respected that and didn’t talked to me and I became pissed with the fact that he did exactly what I asked. I was so immature. I told him to fuck off and he told me I was agressive because of this. I was and am so hurt for being called agressive. For me its ok to curse and for him it’s obviously not.
After we fought and cried I asked If he still loved me and he wasn’t sure. He told me he thinks he loves me and the doubt was clear.
We were together the day after and I felt really heartbroken. He took care of me but didn’t say he loved me back. He said he didn’t want to breakup and I didn’t want that too.
Since this fight I’m super anxious or numb. Can’t deal with our relationship and I’m so afraid he leaves me. But at the same time, I don’t know if I should leave. I don’t know what to do.
TL;DR we fought really bad and I can’t deal with what I did or how he responded. Don’t know if we should be together.
Comments
Neither of you are in a mature enough place to be in a relationship right now.
The fact that you had a screaming fit at him in the store shows that you don’t have enough of a handle on your emotions not to be abusive.
The fact that when you tried to apologize, he made fun of it means that he isn’t serious about the relationship.
The two of you may believe you love each other, but this isn’t how people who love each other treat each other.
You both have emotional growing up to do before you’re ready for a relationship. With anyone.
I think that you both have a lot of growing to do. Whether you guys do that with each other or separately is up to you both. There’s always couples counseling too if you both are serious about staying together