Well don’t know how to address this but it’s a real story I’ve been dealing.

So this all started a few months ago. I moved to US from a different country. So I had contact with people with my same ethnicity. So I found someone from my same ethnicity who were willing to provide a single room for rent in their family house where they were father, mother and their 19 old son. So i moved in considering how the rent was ok enough for me to handle and I would get a solo room for myself. I moved in and I was very much satisfied there. I get to know them and they were here in US for almost 12 years and had their family business. So it was nice as ever, but one day the tables got turned. See the mother of the family Im talking about is a 40 year old female and I am a 21 year old male who is new to US. And from my side I had a complete platonic relationship with her. But one day she invites her friend over who is fillipino and me having a fun experience took some alcohol and started playing guitar and the father of the home was absent the day. So I got drunk pretty much and I crashed on the living room where I was playing my guitar and stuffs. Net thing I know I woke up at abt 4 in the morning and the mother of this house was all wrapped over me. Then I realized this and being hung still went to my room with full of regrets and next morning I asked her how I was sorry and was sorry for if anything happened and she straight up kissed me saying how she liked me. Now you can just tell me a home wrecker and I feel it too but I didn’t initiate this sexual thing. And I am depressed as hell for this though I could not tell her. I have been an alcoholic for past 5 months every single day and I don’t know what to do. I cannot move out either as I become an alcoholic and lost my job too. I cannot blame her either as she was drunk too. I recon she was blacked out before I did but I still cannot recall how she was wrapped up all over me. Now all I do is appreciate my fate and just do the deed in my half conscious drunk state. She tells me she loves me and I have a slight love feeling for her too but not lust. Save me guys before I get shot in my chest.