That it’s nearly impossible to make any sort of mundane decision without some unintended negative consequences that you’ll never fully understand.
What to wear? What to drink and eat? How to travel? If you dig into each of these decisons to far you’d drive yourself crazy with how shitty the world is.
I ignore the fact that I am wasting my time, I explain briefly, last year I entered university, but I decided to change to Saturday mobility because I did not fit in, but I feel that in a single day I could not learn at the same pace and I did not see the point of arriving only once and not knowing anything then, I made the difficult decision to change universities but I left at the beginning of this month and entered the new one on August 12 or 13, so I have to spend three months at home without doing nothing since I can’t work since I’m a blind person and I haven’t really found any way to generate money, I feel bad about myself because I feel like I’ve already lost in life, but I don’t give it importance so as not to fall into depression, because in truth I overthink and worry too much knowing that I’m wasting three months of my life and even more the other eight months of university and starting from scratch, apart from this I’m precisely ignoring the fact of starting my university career from scratch again, in a university where the same thing is going to happen to me of not fitting in, because society It’s very different from us and I really can’t lead a normal social life, and added to this it’s a private school where a lot of aesthetic and cool people come and I don’t exactly fit into that concept.
Sometimes, when people come and talk to me in public, I reply in Welsh and act like I don’t speak English. It’s a guttural and strange enough language that a lot of people assume it’s something really foreign and leave me alone.
I live in Ukraine, and while we are at war, rockets and drones fly every day, but we are so used to it (unfortunately) that we are already trying to ignore it
I don’t mean that we don’t care anymore, just the realities of our lives, in the West people don’t even go to hiding anymore, everyone just works, walks, as if there is no anxiety
I pretend not to know what it feels like to be in love with the guy who doesn’t want me. I pretend I don’t know what it was like to believe him when he said he did.
I pretend I don’t know his work schedule by heart or the time he wakes up every morning, just so I can try and not feel so sad when he doesn’t text me first thing like he used to
I pretend not to know that I’m more likely to be killed by 1/2 the population of the planet based solely on their gender vs mine compared to… wild animals, a lot of illnesses, and just other various mishaps that could happen. Like I am technically safer in the woods with the potential a bear might show up than I am in a room with 1 or more male humans. And it’s just a stats thing.
Im a former mechanic, now in car parts sales, and i build pc’s for a buck on my free time. Clearly my time has shifted from “i can repair your car” to “i can fix your computer” same hourly rate, but im not bending weirdly over/under a pc, im not covered in grease, coolant or gasoline with a pc, im not out in the heat/cold. And have MUCH les surprises with what components are also used/broken.
All that to tell you that my boss doesnt even think im able to plug the printer correctly to the pc. Love it
How to talk. Sometimes I just don’t feel like talking verbally, so I’ll use a notepad or sign language to communicate with people when I’m out and about running errands.
That our existence is completely pointless in the grand scheme of things. My life and humanity’s footprint isn’t even close to a blip on the radar universally speaking.
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I pretend not to know how half the stuff at my job works so I don’t get stuck training other people 😭
Humans will eventually go extinct and the universe will keep on keeping on
That i dont have money
That my alarm went off 7 times and I just chose violence by snoozing every single one🤣
My back pain.
How the tech in meeting rooms work so I don’t have to be the one who connects their laptop to the screen.
That it’s nearly impossible to make any sort of mundane decision without some unintended negative consequences that you’ll never fully understand.
What to wear? What to drink and eat? How to travel? If you dig into each of these decisons to far you’d drive yourself crazy with how shitty the world is.
Pretty much anything anybody’s talking about that I don’t wanna talk about
I ignore the fact that I am wasting my time, I explain briefly, last year I entered university, but I decided to change to Saturday mobility because I did not fit in, but I feel that in a single day I could not learn at the same pace and I did not see the point of arriving only once and not knowing anything then, I made the difficult decision to change universities but I left at the beginning of this month and entered the new one on August 12 or 13, so I have to spend three months at home without doing nothing since I can’t work since I’m a blind person and I haven’t really found any way to generate money, I feel bad about myself because I feel like I’ve already lost in life, but I don’t give it importance so as not to fall into depression, because in truth I overthink and worry too much knowing that I’m wasting three months of my life and even more the other eight months of university and starting from scratch, apart from this I’m precisely ignoring the fact of starting my university career from scratch again, in a university where the same thing is going to happen to me of not fitting in, because society It’s very different from us and I really can’t lead a normal social life, and added to this it’s a private school where a lot of aesthetic and cool people come and I don’t exactly fit into that concept.
That the stream i choose to study rn would definitely not be the one i would be good at
How to pay my big credit card debt
I pretend to be new everywhere I go
A synonym for indentured servitude is taxes
Everything, so my kid can tell me what he learned today in school. To be fair, often it is something I don’t know.
That my mil found the sex toys.
I’m in an unhappy marriage that my spouse refuses to acknowledge and work on.
I know way too much about suicide methods and just try to ignore that or pretend I am wrong anyway.
I don’t know microsoft excel.
Urdu
that my drug use will have horrible consequences
People.
No, I do not want to hang out/talk. I just wanna get home and take a nap. 😭
That my Mum was in fairly regular contact with my ex boyfriend for about 6 months after we broke up and he was keeping tabs on me via her 😶
They talking behind my back
The cost of taxis back to my house, that way I can just claim they’re too expensive and completely avoid any after work socialising. 😉
English that came from latin roots.
What’s left in my bank account won’t last long
That I’m running on fumes and have no idea what I’m doing but if I act chill and smile enough, maybe no one will notice 😅
That I’m suicidal.
that world is going to shit because of the current administration
That two months ago my oncologist told me I have about three to four months to live.
People’s true selves
I pretend not to know just how much more effort my husband can put in to help around the house and how stuck I am knowing it will always be like this.
Honestly look for something exciting in the future and get excited for it like even if something simple and like live and wait for it and repeat
Sometimes, when people come and talk to me in public, I reply in Welsh and act like I don’t speak English. It’s a guttural and strange enough language that a lot of people assume it’s something really foreign and leave me alone.
I live in Ukraine, and while we are at war, rockets and drones fly every day, but we are so used to it (unfortunately) that we are already trying to ignore it
I don’t mean that we don’t care anymore, just the realities of our lives, in the West people don’t even go to hiding anymore, everyone just works, walks, as if there is no anxiety
I pretend not to know what it feels like to be in love with the guy who doesn’t want me. I pretend I don’t know what it was like to believe him when he said he did.
I pretend I don’t know his work schedule by heart or the time he wakes up every morning, just so I can try and not feel so sad when he doesn’t text me first thing like he used to
English 🤣 I’m a contractor and almost daily I have encounters with “Karen’s”, so I just speak with a thick accent and say “no English”
I pretend not to know that I’m more likely to be killed by 1/2 the population of the planet based solely on their gender vs mine compared to… wild animals, a lot of illnesses, and just other various mishaps that could happen. Like I am technically safer in the woods with the potential a bear might show up than I am in a room with 1 or more male humans. And it’s just a stats thing.
LoL, a fuckin lot.
I absolutely hate pointing out in person when people make mistakes or are wrong, so I just let them until shit hits the fan.
Im a former mechanic, now in car parts sales, and i build pc’s for a buck on my free time. Clearly my time has shifted from “i can repair your car” to “i can fix your computer” same hourly rate, but im not bending weirdly over/under a pc, im not covered in grease, coolant or gasoline with a pc, im not out in the heat/cold. And have MUCH les surprises with what components are also used/broken.
All that to tell you that my boss doesnt even think im able to plug the printer correctly to the pc. Love it
I owe lot of money to people ..
That the world could end in 2027. I tell myself it wont.
How to fix most tech issues. It’s usually simple but I don’t want to become that guy
How to talk. Sometimes I just don’t feel like talking verbally, so I’ll use a notepad or sign language to communicate with people when I’m out and about running errands.
How much sleep I actually need.
That our existence is completely pointless in the grand scheme of things. My life and humanity’s footprint isn’t even close to a blip on the radar universally speaking.
That I actually understand Excel pretty well. Once you let that slip in the office suddenly everyone needs just a quick favor with their spreadsheets.
I did the opposite. Made a carer of knowing a lot about everything. Results? More work same or less pay. Because I should “enjoy” doing this.
Edit: I slowly stopped. And just said IDK to a lot of things. It’s been great.
In order to have everything that I use 24/7 from water to smartphone is due to nearly everyone in the planet being VERY poor
Animal and child cruelty 😢 sometimes ignorance is bliss..
Fuck off, I got work to do.
That one day I’m going to just be dead and none of this will even matter at all.
I sometimes pretend I don’t know the answers to some of my kids questions. Whilst lovely that they’re curious, they do ask a lot of questions… 😅
I don’t know 🤷♂️
I pretend to be working with super concentration, while in reality I’ve been staring at an empty Excel field for 20 minutes.
How much more Amazon rain forest there was when I was born
My problems. Because if I think too much of them, I’ll be depressed and anxious.
That I literally have a test the next day and I haven’t studied yet
I pretend to not know I have no savings to retire, rent went up again and I need a knee replacement just to keep working a few more years.