A guy i met lied about his whole identity (I mean name age job everything). When i confronted him about his real and fake age today after months of knowing him he first played dumb but i asked him the reasons he lied. There was no explanation his reason was no reason. I kind of liked him too and had fun with him irl. I’ve lost some trust in people in general after that.
Just thinking about why someone would choose to do this to me for so long and hoping karma is real
My boyfriend of 2 years broke up with me.. Said he was out of love with me for a year now but was waiting for the right time to end it. So now I’m packing my shit to move out
This is dumb, but if I fall asleep, work will get here faster. I have a crummy day at work tomorrow. Ironically, doing it with no sleep will make it even crummier.
Road work on my street in San Francisco. All power off on my block and loud trucks. Well, I guess it’s not road work but all the power and electricity is underground here..so a lot of noise.
There’s a lot. Divorced just under a year ago. I’m a high earner but the only ones who have wanted to be with me are the ones who liked the income, not me. I’m dry funny, world experienced (love to travel), and an intimate gentleman. Seems this days this isn’t the way to be. Over the last couple of months I’ve been on a few dates, but I want fun, real fun like let’s explore some beaches and drinks, they immediately want more. I don’t trust that. Advice?
Sort of had a breakdown a few nights ago that resulted in some beautiful minds writing on walls levels of losing it. Embarrassed and unsure why tf my apparent mid-life crisis has been a string of events indicating a clear spiraling of sorts, I spent 3 days straight in bed.
Now, awake as can be with some damage control to do, I will be taking inventory and getting my priorities back in place, tidying up, going through and sorting bills, arranging my workstation etc.. and putting a proper to-do list in place on my whiteboard to get this train back on track.
Had tacos for dinner using some beef that may have been a few days older than its fresh life. My stomach is making all sorts of interesting noises right now.
My wife is probably going to divorce me because I’m not enough of a “man” for her, I burden her with my emotions, and I feel like she resents me every single day even when she appears to be happy. She told me I didn’t stick up for her when my friend made a comment during virtual D&D about how going to Applebees in high school after an event was underwhelming and not very fancy. My wife told me after that it hurt her feelings because she was poor growing up, and going to a place like Applebees was a special thing for her. I know that his comment wasn’t directed towards her whatsoever, and he doesn’t know how she grew up so he can’t relate. He grew up privileged. I comforted her after she cried about it, but didn’t say anything to him. She told me tonight that she lost respect for me because of that. I feel blindsided by that.
I feel completely unloved and don’t even feel like a person anymore. She hasn’t talked to me for days, and she’s probably leaving on a plane to her mother’s soon. I feel completely brokenhearted and miserable and I can’t talk to my best friend about it because that would probably just make things even worse.
when i was a child i laid down in a beautiful, peaceful lush meadow and two hellishly evil grasshoppers nestled into my brain through my ears and every night they throw absolutely wicked dance parties, disco ball and all, and i swear sometimes i can feel them tap dancing on my frontal cortex
also the horrors of humanity repeating itself into damnatjon over and over again and the sinking realization that there has never been and will never be a world where humans can be at peace because there is a world where there is humans
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Too much caffeine
Me being a night owl.
Nothing it’s 7.30am
Your mom said she’s pregnant
then blocked me when I asked if it was mine
child support and alimony?
I’m not bill gates bruh tell her to unblock me
I work nights.
Reddit
THis dick (idont have one)
My other head lol
I’m still at work, it’s almost midnight RIP.
Nothing is really afternoon
Reddit
My sexy girl
I like the quiet and stillness
Work
A guy i met lied about his whole identity (I mean name age job everything). When i confronted him about his real and fake age today after months of knowing him he first played dumb but i asked him the reasons he lied. There was no explanation his reason was no reason. I kind of liked him too and had fun with him irl. I’ve lost some trust in people in general after that.
Just thinking about why someone would choose to do this to me for so long and hoping karma is real
The dreaded “Clopen.” Got home at 11p, have to turn-and-burn and be back at work at 6a. It’s now 12:40 MST, and I’m wide awake.
Tv and too much Red Bull
My boyfriend of 2 years broke up with me.. Said he was out of love with me for a year now but was waiting for the right time to end it. So now I’m packing my shit to move out
Having strep. It’s only day 3
This night particularly because I am contemplating if I am bisexual or just attracted to another female for the first time in my life.
Reddit
My mind and my PS5. I’m about to go to bed, though.
This is dumb, but if I fall asleep, work will get here faster. I have a crummy day at work tomorrow. Ironically, doing it with no sleep will make it even crummier.
PTSD symptoms
Have to be up early so I can eat before I have a ketamine treatment
Stress depression
tiktok
I work the night shift. Just 3 more hours until a 3 day weekend!
Ehlers Danlos pain.
Chat
Our stupid fucking cat.
I like being alone and I don’t look forward to waking up tomorrow.
Same thing that keeps me up every night! Stress, anxiety and depression! Fun time
Just going in and out of sleep.
My kid woke me up because she couldn’t sleep. Now look who’s awake!
My retirement portfolio. F*@k Trump.
My neighbor rofl 🤣
Just can’t sleep. Happened Monday night too.
Road work on my street in San Francisco. All power off on my block and loud trucks. Well, I guess it’s not road work but all the power and electricity is underground here..so a lot of noise.
Insomnia.
Nightmares
It’s still the afternoon
There’s a lot. Divorced just under a year ago. I’m a high earner but the only ones who have wanted to be with me are the ones who liked the income, not me. I’m dry funny, world experienced (love to travel), and an intimate gentleman. Seems this days this isn’t the way to be. Over the last couple of months I’ve been on a few dates, but I want fun, real fun like let’s explore some beaches and drinks, they immediately want more. I don’t trust that. Advice?
I work the night shift
Youtube but also stress from friend problems
need a new iphone
Nothing I’m just gaming you?
Work
Work
Depression and anxiety. Anxiety keeps me awake at night. Depression makes me sleepy all day. 🙁
Depression
Insomnia i cant sleep even though i want to
The girl I fumbled in school
We both liked each other very much
But I broke her heart
A fucked up sleep schedule due to unemployment.
It’s 7.20pm
That I’m never good enough.
Things that were….. things that are….. and some things that have not yet come to pass.
I went to watch arurora borealis. It is very rare to see it so clearly this far south in my country.
Sort of had a breakdown a few nights ago that resulted in some beautiful minds writing on walls levels of losing it. Embarrassed and unsure why tf my apparent mid-life crisis has been a string of events indicating a clear spiraling of sorts, I spent 3 days straight in bed.
Now, awake as can be with some damage control to do, I will be taking inventory and getting my priorities back in place, tidying up, going through and sorting bills, arranging my workstation etc.. and putting a proper to-do list in place on my whiteboard to get this train back on track.
Pain.I have so much fucking pain all over, I can’t sleep.
Loneliness and I have nothing to offer so the realization of forever loneliness.
Minecraft
I was planning to retire this year, now I’m not so sure and I’m pretty fucking stressed about the whole thing.
Had tacos for dinner using some beef that may have been a few days older than its fresh life. My stomach is making all sorts of interesting noises right now.
Darr. I am scared of ghosts. So I keep my light on and my eyes open, I drop to sleep and my eyes close automatically.
Waiting for the shinkansen to go back to my hotel
Caffeine
Reddit
Stress, longing, sadness and worry for the future
My wife is probably going to divorce me because I’m not enough of a “man” for her, I burden her with my emotions, and I feel like she resents me every single day even when she appears to be happy. She told me I didn’t stick up for her when my friend made a comment during virtual D&D about how going to Applebees in high school after an event was underwhelming and not very fancy. My wife told me after that it hurt her feelings because she was poor growing up, and going to a place like Applebees was a special thing for her. I know that his comment wasn’t directed towards her whatsoever, and he doesn’t know how she grew up so he can’t relate. He grew up privileged. I comforted her after she cried about it, but didn’t say anything to him. She told me tonight that she lost respect for me because of that. I feel blindsided by that.
I feel completely unloved and don’t even feel like a person anymore. She hasn’t talked to me for days, and she’s probably leaving on a plane to her mother’s soon. I feel completely brokenhearted and miserable and I can’t talk to my best friend about it because that would probably just make things even worse.
when i was a child i laid down in a beautiful, peaceful lush meadow and two hellishly evil grasshoppers nestled into my brain through my ears and every night they throw absolutely wicked dance parties, disco ball and all, and i swear sometimes i can feel them tap dancing on my frontal cortex
also the horrors of humanity repeating itself into damnatjon over and over again and the sinking realization that there has never been and will never be a world where humans can be at peace because there is a world where there is humans
A bad reaction to my monthly eye injections.
The daily grind of living. It’s nerve racking.
Insomnia
Foxes fucking