So I (27F) moved to a new city and made a friend (24F). We became very close very quickly, to the point that we sometimes accidentally left out our other friends when we spent time in a group setting. She made some rude comments and acted in ways i didn’t love, and it did start to weigh on me. Then, I went through a very intense heartbreak that triggered my past trauma and sent me into a bad spot with my mental health. She doesn’t know about the heartbreak she just knows I’ve been going through some emotional stuff that’s all i said. It ended up being a very tough time for me that I’m barely getting past.
TL;DR
Basically i thought she was too focused on male attention and put me down. I know I also wasn’t perfect in our friendship and could have handled things better. At the same time I was going through the heartbreak, she got a bf. After how she’s hurt me, I’ll admit that I do feel jealous because it does feel unfair. I’ve been avoiding her for a couple months and working on my mental health. We have mutual friends and a plan to go to a concert together soon. But I don’t know what to do. I haven’t ignored her just haven’t hung out with her or talked to her much.
I think with the time for self reflection, I kind of realized, I don’t think she’s a girls’ girl. It’s not about the male attention, it’s about her behavior and willingness to put me down even if she was unaware i guess
Examples:
– she asked if she could rate me out of 10, i said no but she said you’re a 7/10
– we matched with the same guy on a dating app, i made an annoying joke to him revealing he was talking to two friends, but she kept talking to him and then told me that he told her “do i have to pick just one? I want to hang out with you without your friend” i just don’t really understand what the point in telling me that is other than to make me feel bad and her feel better
– a guy wanted to hook up with me, i said no, but she followed him on social media even tho she said she didn’t like him and had no interest, he doesn’t even live in our city. She messaged him, and then kept bringing up multiple times that he added her to his close friends, he followed her on his private acct and she even took pity on me that he didn’t do the same for me and continued to bring it up anyways, even told our mutual friends about it
– she shushed me a couple times in front of guys she was talking to at the bar, but we were both drinking
– i was excited because two hot people hit on me when i went on a solo trip and said “i guess i can pull” and she was like “who am i? I can pull” mocking me
– she said she would go on a hinge date if our mutual friend went on a date, and i said ‘why not me?’ And she said “because you never make it past a talking stage”
– we were drinking at the club and she ditched me for guys and a dude groped me
– not necessarily mean but odd: she told me that she was worried to hang out with new friends without me because she was worried she wasn’t fun without me, but she told me she realized she is actually fun on her own. I’ve never had a friend say something like that to me and paired with the put downs, it felt odd to me. She’s also telling me that people say we’re the same but no one has ever told me that.
– i went through a really sad experience with a friend mistreating me last year and i told her about it. When we met up with mutual friends they didn’t know about it and were curious so i started to tell them, separate from her, like it was a group setting. She cut in and said “Omigod you’ve told me this like 5 times.” And i was like “no i haven’t.” And she was like “you literally have.” So i just shut up about it, but it felt very rude and other friends also thought it was.
This is over the span of like a year, and she keeps asking to hang out. We were like best friends. I don’t think i acted out of jealousy because i haven’t been spending time with her and even got off social media. I also worry I said rude things i don’t remember. Because i know it happens to the best of us, so I’m worried I’m being too sensitive. She has apologized a little bit, kind of just like “i got the ick for my behavior last night” or “sorry if i said anything weird” that kind of stuff. I called her out a few times. When i said like “notice how I didn’t talk to a guy who was interested in you.” She was like “i wouldn’t care if you did.” But i did let a lot slide and seemed and said i was okay when i guess i wasn’t. We have a plan to go to a concert together in a couple months and also she is friends with my mutual friends who I’ve also been avoiding. Another thing i should add is that she’s never dated anyone or had a crush or anything, so i think she lowkey just discovered male attention lmao. And also she’s not really drank before. We have mutual friends but I’ve basically checked out of the friendship and have been spending more time alone or with other less close friends. Do I go to the concert? Do i fade out the friendship or what?
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‘she asked if she could rate me out of ten I said no but she said you’re 7’
where do you find these weirdos oh god