What to do when you feel like you’ve tried everything to feel better?

I feel like I’ve been trying so hard for so long, and struggling to see how things will get any better.

I’m in my thirties and have struggled with my mental health, following things a lot of things people go through – break-ups, bereavements, chronic health issues, some trauma and addiction issues too. I’ve done lots of therapy, been sober, have lots of hobbies, volunteering, helping others, I have plenty of friends (admittedly it’s gotten harder to feel the same connections with people growing older), I’ve tried medications, tried working and not working, being outdoors, podcasts and sports, and life still seems so hard and pointless.

I’ve moved back in with my parents, and I know I’m lucky to be able to do this but I feel so alone and aimless. I feel sad when I see people out there enjoying life, with partners and groups of friends and children, I feel like it’s too late for me. I was thinking of going travelling but it seems like a temporary fix or a last resort, and it’s a bit scary with my health issues. I am (or at least used to be) quite a fun and sociable person, but it’s getting harder to find the joy in life.

Sorry if this seems like a pity party, I know so many people out there have it worse. Does any one have any advice on how to get some hope back or where to look for meaning?

Thanks for reading ❤️