Playing football/soccer outside with my friends in pre-teenage days. Unfortunately, I spend most of my time indoors these days, and my crew fall apart. I’m 28 now and I miss it all.
Was downtown for the day with a close friend many years ago. We rode down on transit, walked a park, had lunch, fed some squirrels, viewed the fish and birds on a wildlife center, then headed to an orchestra performance in a beautiful theater with painted ceilings. We were both decked out in our fancy wear all day long for the orchestra. While listening to the music she put her hand next on mine and twined our fingers, just to share the experience together even more.
Walking out of the building after I gave my capstone course final presentation, knowing I had earned my bachelor’s degree and had a salaried job waiting for me the next week.
I grew up poor. One of my parents died when I was a kid. The other one made bad decisions, drug use and mental illness intertwined and by that point I had cut contact with them. I didn’t have a margin for error if college didn’t work. I was in debt and had nowhere to go. I felt so much pressure for so many years, even in high school. I had to thread a needle, everything had to be perfect.
To this day, I have never felt such relief as in that moment. You know, I did it. I almost fainted in the parking lot when the realization truly set in.
Peeking down the hallway into the living room where the Christmas tree was the only light and all the presents Santa had just left us were stacked and waiting for us.
My soulmate dragging me to the bedroom for the first time, telling me she was finally ready for me to have her. (We had both gotten out of toxic relationships before, and she didn’t want to have sex until she was sure it was actually completely about us)
Any moment my grandma was alive… but probably when she was picking me up from school and took me to McDonalds for ice cream while she would tell me stories about her life.
The roughly six months after I moved back to my hometown after living in New York City for 10 years. It was just such a unique feeling of familiarity and newness at the same time. I was simultaneously deep in nostalgia but also discovering how much my hometown had changed. I was able to see my parents whenever I wanted instead of a couple times a year. I was reconnecting with old friends, making new friends. And it was the first time I ever lived completely on my own, without roommates or anything.
What galloping at full speed on a horse feels like.
I learned to ride a horse at 3 years old and didn’t stop until I was 16. I got diagnosed with epilepsy at 16 and my parents sold my horse and forbade me from riding. Still depend on them so riding is still a no. Hopefully someday I’ll be able to ride again.
A girl I dated back in 1998. Our first proper kiss as I left her house, the porch light was off so her mother couldn’t see us, I still remember how her body felt pressed against mine.
I drove home in a daze, with the Alice In Chains unplugged cd playing at max volume, and everything felt absolutely perfect.
My grandparents’ small winter home down in Arizona, in spring. Aside from the unique and amazing bouquet of the Sonoran Desert in April, their house had a unique fragrance of its own I would do just about anything to immerse myself in one more time before I go. I’m a perfumist/soap maker, and so have a sensitive nose, though with a gap of thirty years between me and my grandparents’ Arizona home, I know it’s been warped to a degree. But I know it’s made up of oaken cupboards my grandfather had crafted, cold coffee, the mild must of a house left empty for months of the year, and the desert in April under it all.
I still get little elements of that complex fragrance, occasionally. Like a building I work in after the summer, after it had been empty for a couple months, mixing with old coffee from one of the rooms. But never the real deal. It has ended complexity, that trying to mix it in fragrance/ essential oils is beyond my ability. But that doesn’t mean I haven’t tried haha…
Not one specific time, but sitting on the porch reading the paper alongside my Dad while drinking coffee. He’s long since past, but I use his coffee cup every day.
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Playing through Outer Wilds for the first time again.
My first trip with my brothers !!
When I thought I was happy and the world was ahead of me.
Christmas at my grandparents house when they were alive and the whole family came.
Playing football/soccer outside with my friends in pre-teenage days. Unfortunately, I spend most of my time indoors these days, and my crew fall apart. I’m 28 now and I miss it all.
Behind that old 1-room schoolhouse at age 18….
The moment I got to hold my daughter after she was born. They grow way too fast!
The first time a woman said they loved me that wasn’t my mom or sisters.
Falling in love for the first time again without the pain of previous heart breaks
Was downtown for the day with a close friend many years ago. We rode down on transit, walked a park, had lunch, fed some squirrels, viewed the fish and birds on a wildlife center, then headed to an orchestra performance in a beautiful theater with painted ceilings. We were both decked out in our fancy wear all day long for the orchestra. While listening to the music she put her hand next on mine and twined our fingers, just to share the experience together even more.
It was one of the best days of my life.
The price is too high, there is time to make new memories.
Falling in love with my wife.
I still love her more than anything but that period where I was falling was magic.
Elway winning Super Bowl XXXII. I was 3 when he was drafted. A freshman in college when they finally won it all.
Any moment with my dad when he was alive
Walking out of the building after I gave my capstone course final presentation, knowing I had earned my bachelor’s degree and had a salaried job waiting for me the next week.
I grew up poor. One of my parents died when I was a kid. The other one made bad decisions, drug use and mental illness intertwined and by that point I had cut contact with them. I didn’t have a margin for error if college didn’t work. I was in debt and had nowhere to go. I felt so much pressure for so many years, even in high school. I had to thread a needle, everything had to be perfect.
To this day, I have never felt such relief as in that moment. You know, I did it. I almost fainted in the parking lot when the realization truly set in.
The births of my sons. Nothing was better than seeing them come into the world.
When I was asked to be a bf. It surprised me as much as it was cute.
The first time I said “I love you” to my then-GF and she said it back.
Peeking down the hallway into the living room where the Christmas tree was the only light and all the presents Santa had just left us were stacked and waiting for us.
Watching The Matrix for the first time at 10 years old.
I was a super sheltered kid. No experience outside of family, church, school, and PBS cartoons.
Then this happened.
Playing Skyrim for the first time
The last few days leaving USA only because I got to see family across 3 states
My soulmate dragging me to the bedroom for the first time, telling me she was finally ready for me to have her. (We had both gotten out of toxic relationships before, and she didn’t want to have sex until she was sure it was actually completely about us)
This trip to NYC with friends in 2021
Any moment my grandma was alive… but probably when she was picking me up from school and took me to McDonalds for ice cream while she would tell me stories about her life.
Met my wife when she was 13 did not marry her until I was 59. Go back & save us both a lot of time & energy & focus on one another!!
My honeymoon, was absolute magic.
The roughly six months after I moved back to my hometown after living in New York City for 10 years. It was just such a unique feeling of familiarity and newness at the same time. I was simultaneously deep in nostalgia but also discovering how much my hometown had changed. I was able to see my parents whenever I wanted instead of a couple times a year. I was reconnecting with old friends, making new friends. And it was the first time I ever lived completely on my own, without roommates or anything.
What galloping at full speed on a horse feels like.
I learned to ride a horse at 3 years old and didn’t stop until I was 16. I got diagnosed with epilepsy at 16 and my parents sold my horse and forbade me from riding. Still depend on them so riding is still a no. Hopefully someday I’ll be able to ride again.
Giving my uncle a long hug before he passed away, and hearing his nickname he had for me.
A girl I dated back in 1998. Our first proper kiss as I left her house, the porch light was off so her mother couldn’t see us, I still remember how her body felt pressed against mine.
I drove home in a daze, with the Alice In Chains unplugged cd playing at max volume, and everything felt absolutely perfect.
My grandparents’ small winter home down in Arizona, in spring. Aside from the unique and amazing bouquet of the Sonoran Desert in April, their house had a unique fragrance of its own I would do just about anything to immerse myself in one more time before I go. I’m a perfumist/soap maker, and so have a sensitive nose, though with a gap of thirty years between me and my grandparents’ Arizona home, I know it’s been warped to a degree. But I know it’s made up of oaken cupboards my grandfather had crafted, cold coffee, the mild must of a house left empty for months of the year, and the desert in April under it all.
I still get little elements of that complex fragrance, occasionally. Like a building I work in after the summer, after it had been empty for a couple months, mixing with old coffee from one of the rooms. But never the real deal. It has ended complexity, that trying to mix it in fragrance/ essential oils is beyond my ability. But that doesn’t mean I haven’t tried haha…
The first time I felt loved and desired. The memory is enough to keep me going when it feels like the world is against me. I’d sell my soul for less.
My wife and I met on Match 8 years ago. Our first kiss was next to her SUV after our second date. Absolutely the best kiss i have ever experienced……
Any, in no particular order:
Not one specific time, but sitting on the porch reading the paper alongside my Dad while drinking coffee. He’s long since past, but I use his coffee cup every day.
Saw a gigantic shooting star go left to right across the night sky when I was on a first date with a girl. Disney ahh memory.