Although I smile and I’m happy outwardly, I truly hate myself, as an overthinker I spiral a lot until every action I take is wrong and I wish I wasn’t me.
I am a 42 year old graffiti artist… I live in the suburbs, successful business owner, father, a big hockey enthusiast and referee, very neighborly… a lot of people are shocked when they find out…
I’m extremely flexible thanks to hEDS. It scares people and I love it. I was having breakfast at summer camp way back in the day, and someone was like “hey do your party trick” so I turned my arm all the way around- and fake broke my arm- and people started gagging and almost threw up 😂
No one hates me more than I hate me.
I loathe the person in the mirror. Postpartum is hard. Especially after the 2nd child. I don’t even recognize myself.
that I don’t want to leave my bed most of the days, that I’m still processing the fact that my brother was diagnosed with schizophrenia, that my room is in need of a clean up
My ethnicity. I think when people think of a half-Asian/half-white person, they assume that the Asian genes would dominate. It’s not always the case and most people think I’m Hispanic, Filipino, Italian and sometimes Indian. People can tell when I’m with my Asian parent sometimes but I think it depends on what traits you notice first.
I am educated, professional and helpful and a dedicated worker. I take great care of others. I am horribly unable to take care of or advocate for myself.
I’m kind by nature. When people see me go through hard times they’re always surprised by my strength. It’s fair enough. It always surprises my ass too.
People at work are always shocked when they find out I am a minister at my church. I guess with the type of work we do (automotive repair) and all the hours we work (60 a week) they don’t understand how I find the time to commit to ministry ( I don’t either)
I have three kids, but I’ve never gone in labor on my own. All three pregnancies had the water break, but I never went in labor like the books said I would, so had emergency inductions to get them out.
My physical appearance gives off “aww” vibes, so anything against that is a shocker for them.
I talk a lot of smack about shit I’ve never done or know, and people assume I did (or didn’t) do whatever I’m talking about so confidently (I’m a virgin)
I look pretty young for my age, have one of those very innocent, good boy faces and I’m pretty easy going and agreeable. People tend to think I’m as vanilla as they come and not believe my antics before I show them pics or videos.
I’m super into multipitch/bigwall climbing, free soloing, tree soloing, norvegian death jumping, surfing, rope jumps/swings, highlining and at 42 still regularly go to illegal raves and punk concerts. Not a midlife crisis either, just never stopped doing what makes me feel like I’m actually living life. Nobody would guess these things by just looking at me.
I’m actually weight conscious. Reason it’s likely surprising is because I’m effortlessly skinny.
That’s… the problem though. I’ve been terribly underweight for a while now and have been having a hard time fixing it. It kind of scares me.
That because if a stem cell transplant, my body produces blood of the other sex (my donor), and now have some minor internal body regulation/function that emulates the opposite sex.
I’m a recovering drug addict and alcoholic. I’m also a high school teacher in a small town where everyone knows everyone. However as a teacher I’m a respected person in the community. I keep my recovery private. My principal knows it and that’s good enough for me. Just in case it becomes a topic of gossip.
Another surprising tidbit about me is that I am a trained martial artist with an upper level brown belt ( think very close to black belt). I try to be super nice and kind to everyone around me. This is partly because I want the world to be a better place so I model this behavior. And partly because if someone forces me to be violent I want it to come out of nowhere and surprise them with the extreme level of violence I can give them.
Last tidbit that would surprise people is that I am an ordained minister. I became ordained as a middle finger to the TN legislature who passed a law that gives ministers the right to refuse to marry gay couples based on religious beliefs. F that. I’ll marry them.
I had chronic inner otitis (inner ear infection) as a child and spent Kindergarten years almost deaf. It took a long time for my parents to realize as I wasn’t complaining or showing any sign of pain and the only clue was that the Kindergarten teacher noticed that I wasn’t mingling with other children. I had grommets and went to speech therapist.
I’m currently working in sound mixing and engineering and doing apparently a good job so I guess it worked well.
I’m a metal head and love throwing down in the pit. I’m a bubbly, leggy blonde, friends call me Barbie and joke that I look like Taylor swift. I like really cute things and love to adorn my belongings with little teddy bear keychains.
I’m also a HUGE weeb of 20 years, and have literal months of watch time under my belt. I’m not a merch person and don’t present as a typical otaku so you’d never know unless I started talking about it.
I run paid classes or advice sessions for local sex workers (predominately from overseas) on life in the UK, language, legal, finance, improving their work, immigration, safety, pilates, and anything else they aren’t sure about. It started off as a joke years ago, but there as barely been a week since where at least a few have queries.
I am a great dancer. I may not look like it, but I could be in those Step Up movies. I’ve been told by many that they never would have guessed I was a dancing nerd.
That I was a hardcore jesus freak for about 10-15 years, comprising 1991-??
I’m a member of the Satanic Temple now, with multiple sigils in my house. I’m trans. I’m atheist. I cosplay. I do all kinds of nerdy shit the people who knew me in 1998 would never have even heard of let alone expected me to be into. I’m kinky and sexual. I write erotica. I design costumes for OnlyFans clients. I am so fucking not into religion at all but wow, if you saw me in 1993 you’d be like, new phone who dis?
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That i give off such great vibes but deep down I’m still hurt and broken with grief. Life goes on and we must too.
Although I smile and I’m happy outwardly, I truly hate myself, as an overthinker I spiral a lot until every action I take is wrong and I wish I wasn’t me.
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i have two buttholes
That I use Reddit
I am a 42 year old graffiti artist… I live in the suburbs, successful business owner, father, a big hockey enthusiast and referee, very neighborly… a lot of people are shocked when they find out…
I’m extremely flexible thanks to hEDS. It scares people and I love it. I was having breakfast at summer camp way back in the day, and someone was like “hey do your party trick” so I turned my arm all the way around- and fake broke my arm- and people started gagging and almost threw up 😂
That I actually hate personal social media despite being a Social Media Coordinator.
I’ve never been to a concert.
Ive been single for 20 years and im not unattractive just scared.
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That I’m actually half Asian (it’s mainly other mixed-race people who can tell that I’m mixed).
That i hate public speaking (i’m a teacher)
No one hates me more than I hate me.
I loathe the person in the mirror. Postpartum is hard. Especially after the 2nd child. I don’t even recognize myself.
lies and slander has ruined my name , and all I see is fake pretenders-
or as the kid in 6th Sense said: “I see dead people”
Still a virgin
I’m low-key obsessed with organizing my closet. Like, it’s borderline OCD. I can’t stand when my shoes aren’t in perfect order
that I don’t want to leave my bed most of the days, that I’m still processing the fact that my brother was diagnosed with schizophrenia, that my room is in need of a clean up
I’m on track to get my PhD and have a 4.0 GPA.
I speak Spanish. I am very white.
I was SA when I was 4-6 years old by two family members. Not at the same time. Not sure if they ever spoke with each other about it.
My ethnicity. I think when people think of a half-Asian/half-white person, they assume that the Asian genes would dominate. It’s not always the case and most people think I’m Hispanic, Filipino, Italian and sometimes Indian. People can tell when I’m with my Asian parent sometimes but I think it depends on what traits you notice first.
I’m older than I look
I hate all my coworkers lol
I am educated, professional and helpful and a dedicated worker. I take great care of others. I am horribly unable to take care of or advocate for myself.
That I’m a theater kid 🦅
(I have extreme Social Anxiety)
I’m kind by nature. When people see me go through hard times they’re always surprised by my strength. It’s fair enough. It always surprises my ass too.
That I speak 3 languages and I also know some phrases in Mandarin Chinese
I’m a nudist, I imagine it’s hard to tell by people that know me irl
I don’t look like I listen to heavier music because I dress girly. People are always floored to learn I’d rather listen to metalcore than pop
People at work are always shocked when they find out I am a minister at my church. I guess with the type of work we do (automotive repair) and all the hours we work (60 a week) they don’t understand how I find the time to commit to ministry ( I don’t either)
That I’ve written an erotic romance novel.
I have three kids, but I’ve never gone in labor on my own. All three pregnancies had the water break, but I never went in labor like the books said I would, so had emergency inductions to get them out.
I can create dynamic lists and remember them for years.
I enjoy being kicked in the balls.
Way too many. For two reasons.
That I do a lot of extreme stuff.
I look pretty young for my age, have one of those very innocent, good boy faces and I’m pretty easy going and agreeable. People tend to think I’m as vanilla as they come and not believe my antics before I show them pics or videos.
I’m super into multipitch/bigwall climbing, free soloing, tree soloing, norvegian death jumping, surfing, rope jumps/swings, highlining and at 42 still regularly go to illegal raves and punk concerts. Not a midlife crisis either, just never stopped doing what makes me feel like I’m actually living life. Nobody would guess these things by just looking at me.
I’m actually weight conscious. Reason it’s likely surprising is because I’m effortlessly skinny.
That’s… the problem though. I’ve been terribly underweight for a while now and have been having a hard time fixing it. It kind of scares me.
That I am a conservative who is married to a woman, and I’m 100% gay
That I have schizophrenia.
I’ve never had a cigarette or any illegal drugs (even weed.) people are always shocked when I tell them.
That I speak 6 languages.
Everytime I meet someone and tell them this they all are shocked.
I say please and thank you to Alexa.
That because if a stem cell transplant, my body produces blood of the other sex (my donor), and now have some minor internal body regulation/function that emulates the opposite sex.
That I’m interested in classic literature poetry and philosophy. But people just see tatted up biker
I’m a recovering drug addict and alcoholic. I’m also a high school teacher in a small town where everyone knows everyone. However as a teacher I’m a respected person in the community. I keep my recovery private. My principal knows it and that’s good enough for me. Just in case it becomes a topic of gossip.
Another surprising tidbit about me is that I am a trained martial artist with an upper level brown belt ( think very close to black belt). I try to be super nice and kind to everyone around me. This is partly because I want the world to be a better place so I model this behavior. And partly because if someone forces me to be violent I want it to come out of nowhere and surprise them with the extreme level of violence I can give them.
Last tidbit that would surprise people is that I am an ordained minister. I became ordained as a middle finger to the TN legislature who passed a law that gives ministers the right to refuse to marry gay couples based on religious beliefs. F that. I’ll marry them.
I think I’m the first person to run around the Daytona Speedway barefoot, years ago when it was repaved. At the annual 5k they before the Rolex 24.
That I have ASD. Diagnosed a few years ago.
The ‘you don’t look autistic!’ (Thanks?), ‘you hold yourself very well I never would have guessed’ (I’m great at Masking).
I have fantasies of revenge! For stupid stuff, tho, work stuff, discourteous people
I had chronic inner otitis (inner ear infection) as a child and spent Kindergarten years almost deaf. It took a long time for my parents to realize as I wasn’t complaining or showing any sign of pain and the only clue was that the Kindergarten teacher noticed that I wasn’t mingling with other children. I had grommets and went to speech therapist.
I’m currently working in sound mixing and engineering and doing apparently a good job so I guess it worked well.
I may be cute and loving on the outside, but on the inside… oh boy, its a different world down here, Enter at your own risk🐺🐺🐺
I’m a metal head and love throwing down in the pit. I’m a bubbly, leggy blonde, friends call me Barbie and joke that I look like Taylor swift. I like really cute things and love to adorn my belongings with little teddy bear keychains.
I’m also a HUGE weeb of 20 years, and have literal months of watch time under my belt. I’m not a merch person and don’t present as a typical otaku so you’d never know unless I started talking about it.
I bottle raised an African lion and I once met an active serial killer.
I had an out of body experience thanks to Chantix (drug for quitting smoking). I was hovering above my body looking down on it, and it felt so real.
A few nights later when I had a dream where I was letting out blood-curdling screams in the kitchen closet, I decided to quit taking the Chantix.
My age, I am 30 and people thinks I am 20
I rarely use social media, Reddit aside.
Most people I know think because I’m a geek that I like Star Wars. I actually don’t.
I run paid classes or advice sessions for local sex workers (predominately from overseas) on life in the UK, language, legal, finance, improving their work, immigration, safety, pilates, and anything else they aren’t sure about. It started off as a joke years ago, but there as barely been a week since where at least a few have queries.
I am a great dancer. I may not look like it, but I could be in those Step Up movies. I’ve been told by many that they never would have guessed I was a dancing nerd.
No gag reflux
That I was a hardcore jesus freak for about 10-15 years, comprising 1991-??
I’m a member of the Satanic Temple now, with multiple sigils in my house. I’m trans. I’m atheist. I cosplay. I do all kinds of nerdy shit the people who knew me in 1998 would never have even heard of let alone expected me to be into. I’m kinky and sexual. I write erotica. I design costumes for OnlyFans clients. I am so fucking not into religion at all but wow, if you saw me in 1993 you’d be like, new phone who dis?