It’s in a good way but watching my girls grow up. My sister has a new baby and every time I hold her I’m flooded with memories of my girls when they were that tiny. I literally cry every time.
Not getting professional treatment for my OCD – I realize it gets a lot worse when you think you can just ignore it and continue living as if you don’t have it.
The grind of work, sleep, repeat. I’m now 27 years into it, since graduating from college in 1998. Thanks to wages that never really grew much during 2005-2018, I never got the savings rate I needed to build an adequate retirement. But, it sure was easy to become a father, 2x, and fall into debt.
I’ve worked through much of that now in my older age. But the value of time can’t be understated.
I stayed at a job way too long just because it was convenient and I didn’t feel like dealing with the hassle of finding a new one. Looking back, it really took a toll on my mental health.
Food, i had a doctor lie about my weight and pressured me into binge eating, it quickly turned into an addiction and 3 years later im incredible sick everyday and honestly id pay someone to kill me.
Overthinking about absolutely everything. I hid it from my friends and my husband for months before I finally snapped and was extremely irritable with everything. I can’t seem to stop overthinking to the point i get so damn panicky. Due to past experiences with old jobs, i’m mostly panicky about my job.
Not moving away from my home town. Do not missunderstand me. I love my town but I hate big cities in general they cause me stress.
I feel that the country side is better for my mental health but for various reasons I do not move to a village and stay in a big town although I know this affects my mental health every day it pass.
Fear for the future. Seeing people in power destroy and not having any power to stop it. Fear for other people who are being hurt and not having the power to save them.
Ulcerative colitis and the lack of a proper safety net for me at my job. Hopefully I don’t get fired over a medical condition I’ve got no control over!
I lost my father at an early age (19) and it really puts a perspective on time and life. When something so profound like that happens it helps cut through the BS that most people fall into. I’ve wasted time and done a few stupid things in my life but overall I’ve tried to not take my days for granted and not get stuck in a rut of despair – BUT holy shit this presidential administration is wrecking the world and totally ruining my vibes man. Dude. Every day some new shit is on fire. fUCK!!!
I have a very cushy job which has afforded me a comfortable life to start my family but I haaaaate it. I also feel trapped in a sales career because nothing is offering what I make now and I am not quite qualified to do many other things I would want to do.
I decided to go for a run 12 years ago. An intoxicated driver put me into an 11.5 day coma in the ICU. Traumatic Brain injury, broken sternum, skull, shoulder, etc. I haven’t been able to taste or smell a thing in 12+ yrs. Kinda messed up the whole momentum of my life up until that point as well as causing new, additional stress & heartache.
I discovered music composition therapy while in recovery though. I gave many years to writing music since. If you’re interested, the album 9fm, by artist 9fm is where that decision eventually led me. Silver lining, I guess.
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It’s in a good way but watching my girls grow up. My sister has a new baby and every time I hold her I’m flooded with memories of my girls when they were that tiny. I literally cry every time.
Oxygen …
Knowing I won’t actually own my house even when it’s paid off thanks to property taxes.
My shyness and lack of confidence
Not getting professional treatment for my OCD – I realize it gets a lot worse when you think you can just ignore it and continue living as if you don’t have it.
Hanging around the same people who call me slurs and harass me
Leading a very sedentary lifestyle.
The grind of work, sleep, repeat. I’m now 27 years into it, since graduating from college in 1998. Thanks to wages that never really grew much during 2005-2018, I never got the savings rate I needed to build an adequate retirement. But, it sure was easy to become a father, 2x, and fall into debt.
I’ve worked through much of that now in my older age. But the value of time can’t be understated.
I stayed at a job way too long just because it was convenient and I didn’t feel like dealing with the hassle of finding a new one. Looking back, it really took a toll on my mental health.
Life
Family
Entropy
That would be guilt
Time/age.
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Trump
Mis-matched libido with the woman I love and the fact that sex just isn’t that important to her.
My poor mental health
Touching my cats belly
If he didn’t want it scratched why world he flip upside down?????
clinicals.
Food, i had a doctor lie about my weight and pressured me into binge eating, it quickly turned into an addiction and 3 years later im incredible sick everyday and honestly id pay someone to kill me.
Cancer
making everyone else happy to keep the peace
ADHD 👍
I let my brain talk me out of things that I know could be better for me
Comfort zone
The fact that my parents won’t let me live my life because they are afraid
Watching my mom slowly lose herself to dementia. Every morning I wake up wondering if today’s the day she won’t recognize me anymore.
Alcohol 🍷 🤣
My brother’s cancer
My mind
The build back better failure
Not taking actions
Comparison.
Working.
The fact that inflation is infinite with this bs debt based monetary system and It’s only going to get worse over time
Overthinking about absolutely everything. I hid it from my friends and my husband for months before I finally snapped and was extremely irritable with everything. I can’t seem to stop overthinking to the point i get so damn panicky. Due to past experiences with old jobs, i’m mostly panicky about my job.
my father + the feeling i have no future and i’ll never be able to do it on my own
Alcohol.
Unemployment and the stress of having no income and no prospects. I’m coming up on 10 months now and it’s just depressing and frankly embarrassing.
Some orange painted narcissist is destroying everything and nobody seems to be able or willing to stop him.
Not moving away from my home town. Do not missunderstand me. I love my town but I hate big cities in general they cause me stress.
I feel that the country side is better for my mental health but for various reasons I do not move to a village and stay in a big town although I know this affects my mental health every day it pass.
being very introverted
Fear for the future. Seeing people in power destroy and not having any power to stop it. Fear for other people who are being hurt and not having the power to save them.
Ulcerative colitis and the lack of a proper safety net for me at my job. Hopefully I don’t get fired over a medical condition I’ve got no control over!
Reddit I’m tired of fake online connections but evetone is so wrapped up in their own shit they can’t just chill
Long covid. I’ve been bed bound for almost 6 months. I’m catastrophically disabled.
Having fat under my chin. Even when i ran cross country I still had it. Hate my genetics
I lost my father at an early age (19) and it really puts a perspective on time and life. When something so profound like that happens it helps cut through the BS that most people fall into. I’ve wasted time and done a few stupid things in my life but overall I’ve tried to not take my days for granted and not get stuck in a rut of despair – BUT holy shit this presidential administration is wrecking the world and totally ruining my vibes man. Dude. Every day some new shit is on fire. fUCK!!!
Letting myself fall in love with my bestfriend.
Mobile phone
Soul-crushing Loneliness.
Social media
I have a very cushy job which has afforded me a comfortable life to start my family but I haaaaate it. I also feel trapped in a sales career because nothing is offering what I make now and I am not quite qualified to do many other things I would want to do.
Instagram
I decided to go for a run 12 years ago. An intoxicated driver put me into an 11.5 day coma in the ICU. Traumatic Brain injury, broken sternum, skull, shoulder, etc. I haven’t been able to taste or smell a thing in 12+ yrs. Kinda messed up the whole momentum of my life up until that point as well as causing new, additional stress & heartache.
I discovered music composition therapy while in recovery though. I gave many years to writing music since. If you’re interested, the album 9fm, by artist 9fm is where that decision eventually led me. Silver lining, I guess.
My phone addiction
Not being able to work, drive, make friends, leave this house
Phone addiction
Stress
Age
Gravity
That I’m feeling my age being now a few months away from hitting my new decade.
Having an eating disorder. Everything revolves around it. All I want to do is bed rot but unfortunately I have to be an adult and work full time
Health anxiety, it’s gotten worse since I realized I’m turning 40 in Sept and family genetics around that age are freaking me out.
Working around morons. Well not everyday but definitely Monday through Friday and sometimes Saturday.
doom scrolling