I know there’s a saying about friendship- reason, season, lifetime. I’ve kept a lot of my friendships from preteen- teen years. It was easy and I guess proximity. For whatever reason these past few years have been difficult. When I do meet with people they just talk about their other friends or how they feel immense lack of friendship. It’s almost evident we hang out due to our proximity and years of knowing one another. So many of these friends I had periods of time where we were a bit more distant and then we came back together, but this time it’s just really different.
I spent a lot of time alone, during lockdown and after. The friendships I’ve made in college did not make it out of the classroom. I often consider getting a serving job again so I can make friends or meet people that way. But our goals are different, many of the people I did talk to it feels like they use me as a sounding board. While I did try and do my part by planning things and inviting them, it’s seldom reciprocated, other times they do go. Just I think others may be higher on their priorities list.
I’ve been having some trouble navigating this new period of my life. I think one thing I learned was this was going to happen anyway. I would really like to learn how to recognize how to categorize friendships too. This isn’t a boo hoo cry for me post, I’m trying to search for the bright side & use this as a learning opportunity. And learn my flaws