I don’t know what it is, but I go through dips of my life where I think I’m totally unloveable and useless. I start to think of reasons my husband doesn’t love me and that he’ll leave me one day. Or that he loves me less or that I’m doing things wrong.
Thing is, he is the most lovely human being, super calm, he compliments me every day and tells me how much he loves me everyday but for some reason my mind just goes “mmm but does he really though?” And “is he saying it because he has some mega plan to sabotage me”.
My first love was a very toxic relationship – he’d cheat on me multiple times, tell me he loves me then found someone else.
I also grew up in an emotionally unavailable household where anything you did wasn’t right, you were just always wrong or judged.
I really hate when I feel this way because I build up these weird scenarios in my head and makes me feel bad that I think that my husband doesn’t love me when he does.
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You need to seek professional help in dealing with your past hurts, for both yours and husbands well-being.
Been my whole life. Seek some therapy but what lies within is the most important thing. Reflecting and pushing into your conscience that you Do matter and people Do care about you