Trigger warning mention of SA
So, my first romantic relationship, I basically got love bombed, cheated on and SA’d. And like, it’s been a year and I still can’t stop thinking about what happened. And I don’t know why but I still get like, emotional from it? Every time I think about it I want to throw up and cry. I don’t know if I’m just overreacting and making it bigger than it has to be? I haven’t told my mom what happened but she’s asked me before because whenever she mentions his name I will get annoyed and walk away. But I don’t even think when I react like that I just can’t stand his name.
I wanna know if I’m ever gonna get over the SA and if maybe I’m just overreacting?
And whenever I think about getting into another relationship I get scared? So I haven’t dated anyone.
Mind you this guy I dated was literally my first HAND HOLDING and first kiss – which idk if it’s embarrassing because I was 17F and now I’m 18F.
It’s not like we had sex or anything. I never let it get that far, but he made it very clear that’s what he wanted and I peaced out and broke up with him because I didn’t know what to do when the SA and he was always lying.
So idk.
Will I ever get over it?
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If I’m being honest this really isn’t that bad, and I’m not trying to downplay. Like genuinely this is pretty tame and I think you’ll move on and just recognize that this can be part of life.
as a csa survivor, I can tell you that it doesn’t have to haunt you for the rest of your life. go to therapy. it’ll give you the tools and the best chance at a normal life 🖤
Not everyone is like your ex. Letting his past actions control your future potential means he has truly won. The best you can do? Find a healthy, loving relationship and have a great life.
From other people’s perspective it may not seem that big but that doesn’t mean that others have the right to downplay YOUR trauma. It is your experience and you have a right to feel the way you feel about the situation.
Regardless, it would be best to talk to a professional like a therapist if possible. That may be difficult but it will definitely help you. Maybe start talking to your mom about it. I can tell you that it definitely helps to talk about it. The trauma will probably never go away but little by little it you will get better and it will take a lessor hold on your life. With time it will get easier.